i want to marry brooke fraser

i bought my ticket to the brooke fraser concert in the summer, when i first heard about it because i am a huge fan hers - not only in hillsong but also her independent music. but when i went sunday night i was afraid that she might disappoint (having already been severely disappointed by harry potter 7 -____-).

wow. i was so wrong.

i was completely blown away by how insanely cute she was, just in her mannerisms and quirky humor, and her ability to just be herself on stage. oh, and i was completely mesmermized by her voice which was about 10 times better live than the recordings!

when i met her up close and got my personal autograph, it was just the icing on the cake :)

fullness of who You are

i don't let my God be big enough, i shove Him in a box where i can call on Him when i need Him and have Him appear. God i want the real and living and powerful God, not this God-in-the-box i've made. God i want a burden for Your people and a vision for Your kingdom, i want You to fill all the lonely corners of my heart that i keep trying to fill with other things, i want You to be worth giving my life for, i want You to transform the ugliness inside heart into something beautiful. don't let me settle for a God that i've diminished, Lord show me the fullness of who You are.

there is still more

challenge of the week: if you're not suffering for Christ, are you really living for Him? (Twitter bible study)

arrow - right to the heart. i'm too comfortable and i'm so weak. i get discouraged and confused and tired from the smallest things, but this is not suffering for Christ - this is selfish complaining. i have this anxious, urgent feeling in my heart that there is more i can do to live for God, that there is more than what i've settled for. God mess me up for Your glory, flip my life upside down for the sake of the gospel. i don't know how my life will be used for Your glory, but Lord open my eyes and give me greater vision for Your kingdom work.

couldn't live without music

savior, please - josh wilson

Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can
But I don't know how long I'll last

I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me

Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because
You're all I have

Hallelujah
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me

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i'm so tired of everything, so drained just trying to keep going. God i need Your joy