i've been coming to realize that, as much as i like to confront my problems head-on, i also definitely have escapist tendencies when a solution is not readily available. if i can't confront someone for various reasons, i will avoid them for as long as i have to to escape tension. if i can't do anything about the horrible feeling i have when i think i failed an exam, i will watch movies and kdramas and read books - anything to escape reality. when i get sick of being in philly, all i think about is going home to escape. when i can't do anything about feeling isolated and lonely, i sleep to escape my life. when i feel spiritually dry, i avoid doing QTs to escape that terrible feeling of being so far away from God.
but escape is not a solution. at best, it gives me a slight reprieve from everything, but it doesn't solve anything.
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